Today is Labor day; and I am sitting here and resting and gazing out at all that God has allowed me to be a part of. You see God often (very) allows his children to have dreams come true and be happy. But just as often we also venture through some extremely deep valleys in life. I have been blessed to have some incredible people in my lifetime. Ones who have shared and taught me things that I ordinarily would not have thought had anything to do with what MY life was about. And yet if I will be still long enough and listen I can hear God's voice. He does lead me beside still waters; and he does walk with me in times of distress and worry. They are simple worries to an outsider; but to me they are the worst. We often feel that if it is not about or close to us; we give it little or no thought. Oh, but when it hits close then we are "astute" and ready to do what ever we need to; in order to get through this just as fast and "mark free" as we can. But God may not have us going through this fast; or in what we would consider a timely manner. No instead he sends people to stand beside us; to give us the physical hugs that we need. I have two very special people in my life right now that are in the "deepest valley" that I could ever imagine. One I pray is doing good. The other needs a miracle. Of course my wish for both is that their situations would disappear as suddenly as they appeared.
It is being close to these guys and their families that makes me thankful for where I am at. Do I have a right to complain? No.....well.....maybe. But about what? That I am blessed to have the ability to work so I can pay bills? That I am able to live my life to the fullest extent that I can. Just like in the song; "You Lift Me Up". Yes God lifts me up to the best that I can be with him. And for that I have no right to complain. He has lifted me up high....higher than I deserve. I also pray that one day the 2 ladies that I care about will one day "dance". That they will look forward to getting up in the mornings. I can only imagine that their lives are so "out there" right now; that they feel lost in a sea of emotions.
Well as you probably can guess Labor Day has come and gone. This past week has flown by in a frenzy of long hours at work. And coming home cooking dinner and going to bed. We have experienced at work; allot of ladies out sick this week. I will say this; working at this church is a whole other world. I think for the most part the "women" I work with are "refusing to graduate" from High School. And I am experiencing difficulty in "fitting in". After going out of town to a conference with them, I have decided that for what ever reason God might have in mind I am to be right here. It's not like I have allot of choice. I wish I did. But these women make any "High School" kid look like an adult. Either that or I'm just used to working on my own. Please pray for them and me. I will continue to be helpful and nice; no matter what. I have come to the conclusion that I am here for the kids; not to win a bunch of friends. I just pray that I am who and where God wants me to be.
Living out in the country does give me allot of peace of mind and I so love getting home. The "girls" are most always around and willing to give me hugs. As best as any "horse" can. Dale and I were driving me to work the other day and came across a snake. Guess what Dale did? Go ahead can you guess. He stops the truck and goes to see what kind of snake it is. It was a "cotton mouth". Yes he killed it; the snake was in front of a house that has little kids. No he did not leave it in the middle of the road. Then I found someone's calf roaming around on the side of the road. It was a "great day" in the neighborhood. I do love the smell of the land after a hard rain. You can smell the freshly bailed hay and the earth. Even the dirt smells good. I am looking forward to starting a garden and riding my horse. But first I have to find a saddle and bridle. In the meantime I just love giving them hugs. Lots and lots of hugs. One of the neatest things that God has given me; is the gift of "nature". The other day I saw a "hummingbird" sitting still on a phone line outside my window. I have never seen one completely still. And as we all know God can have a sense of humor; which he decided to show me a part of; I was walking through the meadow and "grasshoppers" were everywhere. As I walked they would jump in, on and around me. I do not like bugs; of any size. But I did survive. I do love listening to elderly people here in town; they are always was. I love being home and just hanging out. I hardly ever go anywhere; don't want to. Being here with the animals is good enough for me. It is very relaxing.
Blessings and hugs,
Karen
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